Monday, January 11, 2010

Changes

Some of you have noticed I've been much quieter lately. You see, life is changing. Last month I had my 11th and final wedding anniversary. What used to be "us" will now be me. The house above will be mine on February 1st. A house I purchased by myself. A very old house. A small house. But mine. I will make it warm and cozy and fill it with all the things I hold dear. I will sew and drink tea in vintage mugs and read books and cuddle with cats and have movie nights with Julia. I will cry. I will be scared. Very scared. I will worry. I will be ok.

But enough of the sad. I'm done with the sad. I'll be needing opinions on paint colors. And organizing tips. And I'll need support when I've stripped almost 100 years worth of wallpaper and am pulling my hair out. There will be before-and-after posts. And it won't be sad. So stick around. :)

42 comments:

  1. Don't be sad, life goes on, trite but true. I will send you a glorious picture of Vemelope to display in your new home and I will certainly share my paint swatch opinions with you readily. And if you paint a room Kennebunkport Green, it will be like I am sitting in that room all the time! Wahoo! Changes are fun and horrifying, but lets focus on the fun :)

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  2. You will be perfect. I can not wait to see the changes to that absolutely beautiful house.

    Just remember it is always okay to cry and to be sad.

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  3. I'm so sorry lovely, just remember not to try to hold in any of the sad, because it will just stick around longer. The house is GORGEOUS and will be just perfect filled with all of your beautiful things. Decorating is the most fun! Busy is good.

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  4. May 2010 bring you comfort in your new home, a place to build new memories and warm your heart.

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  5. Aww, hang in there, my dear. That house is adorable, and I have no doubt you will make it lovely and... HOME. And I can't wait to see. :)

    Best wishes for you...

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  6. Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this difficult time. :(

    I would be happy to do a little drawing for you if it would help make your house feel more like a home. Your new house looks very cute.

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  7. Good Luck you, I am yet to make those last few steps and I think you are really brave. I look forward to following your new adventure and hope 2010 is a brillant new start. rx

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  8. :(

    good luck with your new place it is really cute looking and I am totally jealous! I have been doing the apartment living for 12 years so I would give anything to paint walls that aren't white so you better pick some really cool colors for me!

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  9. I can only imagine how tough it must be to find yourself alone (but you have a beautiful daughter, I've see her in your photos!), but I imagine that it is better than the alternative, otherwise you wouldn't have taken such a big step. And it WILL be all right, and you'll feel much happier when you see that things work out! I'm betting that all of your readers are sending virtual hugs, and it will be so much fun to see how you decorate your new cute house! I know from your blog that you have excellent taste, and I look forward to seeing more of it!

    / Jenny

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  10. Oh dear :( *hugs* Just remember to take the time you need to be sad... and if it helps, do write about it here!

    The house is sweet though, and just the kind I'd imagine you living in! Can't wait for the before-and-afters, and when it's all done, a virtual housewarming party perhaps? :D

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  11. I'm very sorry that you're going through a difficult time *hugs*

    I love the house though, I'm sure you will make it beautiful

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  12. Your post was heartbreaking, but incredibly beautiful simultaneously. Wishes of incredible warmth and comfort in your beautiful home!

    I just purchased my first home as well and wanted to scream and cry as I stripped layer after layer of wallpaper. A spray bottle with vinegar water, a scraper, and a lot of patience transformed four rooms! an amazing journey awaits you!

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  13. Amy_
    I'm so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time right now, but with time, you are going to be ok. I love your house and am looking forward to seeing you make it yours. *Hugs*

    _Deb

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  14. Best of luck to you on this new life adventure! I know scary it is & it can be hard (I'm a single mom running my own business full time too!)...Prayers for you & I'll be popping by to help pick out paint! Cheery yellow does wonders for the soul!

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  15. I just love the house! I really looks wonderful- I wonder what you will do to make it home? I can't wait to see what you choose!

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  16. I have been married for ten and a half years. I can't imagine what it would be like to find your self alone after all that time. But you are not truly alone. Besides all the people in your life that love you you have us, your bloggy friends, supporting you. Hang it there! I can't wait to see what you to with that beautiful house!

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  17. it is so good to hear from you again, and i am so glad that you are going to keep us in your pocket during this transition in your life. i am so sorry for the pain and fear, i would be so scared too, but i think each day will prove easier than the last, which only means it can be an uphill slope. your house is amazingly adorable, i am so proud of you!!! can wait to see all that you do with it!

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  18. So sorry to hear that such a big change is happening in your life. I can not say that I know what you are going through but I can say that I will lend my ear. Your house is cute and I can't wait to see how you turn into your home. My thoughts and prayers will be with you.

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  19. I am so sorry to hear about your marriage. It is a wonderful thing that you have been able to get your own home, somewhere to be warm and safe, where cookies will be baked and curtains will be sewn, and new memories will be made. Wishing you the best.

    p.s. Love the house, can't wait to see that plantar box out front bursting with spring color.

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  20. your new home is just beautiful. a fantastic place for you and your julia to make wonderful new memories. i pray that your hearts will be wraped with warmth and love and your minds will be at peace. good luck on your new chapter. xxxx

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  21. Amy- hugs for you. The house is wonderful. I wish that you did not have to carry the sadness and the worry but I'm so glad you have your beautiful Julia to help you through and of course everyone that reads your blog will love to travel along and offer advice as you make your new house your new home. My farmhouse is over 100 years old and we have worked on it from the moment we moved in over 12 years ago.d I will totally understand and sympathize about your remodeling journey- if you need to scream come on over to my blog and leave a big scream in my comments- I'll know what it is for♥

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  22. Loving you and thinking of you. Wish I could be there for late nights with pizza and wine and paintbrushes . . . we'd have that house beautified in no time!! And it is a very, very cute house Amy. Congratulations on your new beginning. xoxo

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  23. That is a beautiful home. I will be looking forward to reading about your journey on this next chapter of your life. Sending warm support from a gal who's been there and lived to tell about it :)

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  24. I second Jenni's comment: That is an absolutely beautiful home and I think congratulations are in order. Owning your very own home is a huge accomplishment and I am excited for you and all that the future has in store for you!

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  25. I love your new home and look forward to reading stories the adventures you and your daughter have in it. I am sending you lots of support and wanted to let you know that after reading your blog post this morning, I have been thinking about you all day.

    If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies. “How does one become a butterfly?" she asked. "You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar.”

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  26. Wow Amy , what a begin of the new year , it must be a hard time for you , also from my side a big big hug for you !!, i know you are strong and you will manage together with Julia and the cats , i know you will make this beautiful house into your little castle , pretty sure you will find your way in this new journey of your life, will be difficult but try to see the light in the dark days , wish i lived nearby to help you out and drink some tea...but am too far away...but you must know that i'm here for you...lots of love Dani xx

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  27. welcome in your fresh start. the house is adorable and i'm looking forward to seeing what you do with it! you'll be fine :)

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  28. The world is at your feet... walk strong... and we will be here to cheer you on! You have friends out here! : )

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  29. Sending warm hugs to both you and your daughter at this news...may you survive, thrive, and live your lives to their fullest in your new nest. I can't wait to see the transformation of this already-adorable house! Spring is coming which means lots of beautiful flowers!

    Nance

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  30. I was trying to find perfect words for you. I thought of leaving a quote from A Room of One's Own (V. Woolf), but nah. Pfft. There are no perfect words. Transitions are what they are--tragic and amazing at the same time. I think your wisdom and strength will keep you moving in the direction that's best for you and your daughter :)

    And congratulations on your new home! My goodness, if you think that's small you should see the tiny house I grew up in--think matchbox ;)

    BIG hug from Kelly!

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  31. dearest ponderpants,

    these posts are pure proof of your purity of heart and character. you are adored and supported by the people who are privileged enough to know you. we're here to help you shed as much of the past as you need to, and to embrace a new destiny as the queen of your own castle. cheers, lady!

    love,
    mellisa

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  32. Thanks SO much to all of you for these kind words of encouragement. I really needed it and appreciate every single one of you. All of you made me cry!

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  33. I have no doubts that you would be just great!! Best of luck and success wih decorating your new wonderful home!

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  34. Glad to hear you've finally taken the big leap of faith! Mine was finalized last Wednesday...and my life couldn't be better...or scarier...but...exciting! Come back to us bibliophiles! We miss you.

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  35. You have a wonderfully positive attitude and your new house is just fabulous!

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  36. I am a member of the divorce club too. Life does go on, and it does get easier, and I also can safely say... it gets BETTER! ♥

    Your new house is so cute! I can't wait to see how you fix it up!

    Best wishes to you miss, to a happy new year, and to new beginnings.

    ♥ Janell

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  37. Hugs for you Amy, I hope this new and beautiful house gives you love!

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  38. Amy, You've got a great support network right here! ;^) One can survive...even after 22 years of marriage! (Really, it wasn't marriage, it was not even close....) But after the first six months out, when I realized that I was going to live... ;^- ;^0 ;^) ... I decided to really LIVE! ... and that is exactly what I have done.
    You are a beautiful person, you are young...you have so many positive things going for you that I think you already recognize. You can do this!
    I LOVE LOVE LOVE your house!!! Wow! It looks just like the perfect little dollhouse. Can't wait to see the transformations....
    ;^)
    Cynthia

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  39. Hello, I'm a new follower of your lovely blog. I wanted to comment on this wonderful house and share with you that I know just how hard it can be. I was 26 when my first marriage fell apart and I had to start over with 2 young daughters. You will go on and you will feel better. Hugs! Kim

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  40. Amy,
    I see a gentleman caller arriving in a hansom cabriolet sometime soon after February 1st. First name Chuck. Emigrated from London. You will invite him in for tea and six months later he will write a thinly-veiled book about you entitled "Amy Goldenmeadow".

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  41. I've just read your blog backwards to this point, and see that you're off to a wonderful, fresh start in your new life. Your new home and life are going to be fabulous, and you will seldom look back. Congratulations on your new beginnings!

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